Had this unexplained uneasy feeling the whole day and have no idea what caused it.. i know my mood was down yday due to all the sad songs i had been listening to the whole day.. but today?

Hmmmm... maybe cos i started off the day being surrounded by too many old folks... went to accompany my grandpa to CPF Building to withdraw the CPF top-ups.. i have never seen so many old folks in one place other than the old folks home.. i was the youngest there, standing in queue amongst all the old folks.. haaha... i found it rather funny but kinda sad at the same time.. funny cos im in the queue and sad cos some of the old folks are really old and have difficulties in walking but their children were no where in sight.. what if they fall? But luckily there were some helpful CPF staffs who assisted them..

The initial plan for today was to go study at West Coast Mac after accompanying my grandpa... but once i got home, i just felt so lazy to go out to study.. so decided to just stay at home and study.. but that didnt happen.. Fell asleep while wacthing Oprah and i only woke up just in time to catch the live telecast of American Idol.. hmmm... nearly 3 hrs of afternoon nap.. BAAADD!!!! While having dinner, i just had this nagging feeling in my head, its like sthg is eating me up but i have no idea what it is.. but maybe i do.. i think i do, but there are so many of them.. life, family, future... that is like everything!!!

I think i need to do sthg that can keep my 'alive'!! I think i feel pretty dead since having this new job.. when u r not doing sthg that u love, you just feel hollow and empty inside.. i think that is the main reason why im feeling uneasy and it is beginning to dawn on me.. I think for a start, i wanna go to Darul Ma'wa to donate the storybooks that i had collected among my cousin.. I hope that after my exams, the first thing i wanna do is go there.. Kcik, u wanna go too right? U drive k? Heee...

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