It has been a maddening two days... Felt really down and just gloomy... Sometimes, it just never seems enuff to give ur all and never be appreciated for it...
BY MYSELF.
What do i do to ignore them behind me?
Do i follow my instincts blindly?
Do i hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do i sit here and try to stand it?
Or do i try to catch them red-handed?
Do i trust some and get fooled by phoniness.
Or do i trsut nobody and live in loneliness?
Because i can't hold on when i'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but i'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself.
I ask why, but in my mind
I find i can't rely on myself.
I can't hold on
To what i want when i'm stretched so thin.
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failures sinking in
If i turn my back i'm defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If i hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they'll take from me till everything is gone.
If i let them go i'll be outdone
But i try to catch them i'll be outrun
If i'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then i'll be buried in the silence of the answer
By myself.