Saturday, July 23, 2005
Do we have to work???
Its the end of the 2nd week working in SGX and we wld be having test nest week. Initially when i first learn abt the test, i wasnt really bothered becos when u mention "test", i tend to perceive it as a smal affair of pop quiz or sthg like it but i was proven wrong. Last Friday, they same up with the schedule as to when the "test" wld be conducted and the fact that eveeryone is placing such a big weight on it seemed like an "exam" all over again to me. It was suppose to be a "TEST" but why do i feel like its a HUGE "EXAM"?
I have only been working for 2 weeks but on a second thought, its not exactly working cos its only training and im starting to dislike it intensely. I wld not say hate but just dislike it. The whole repeated routine is just so overbearing and overwhelming at certain time. And the fact that everyone is scrutinising my every moves and making sure that i participate in class is just so... so.. urgh! On Thursday, all 5 of us had a talk with Rufina and in a way or so, its kinda a turn off to us. Its not Rufina, she is a very nice lady but its just that, when she mentioned abt the selection process thingy, i was wondering, is working world that vicious and competitive??
It is already enuff that we have to compete among our fellow classmate since primary sch till uni to get the better marks and grades and now in the working world too?? I maybe over-analysing the whole situation because this is my 1st job, but i am pretty sure i dun need this right after my graduation. I think i am very ill-equipped to handle the working world.. sigh... the downside of being the only child..
And now, im kinda having a dilemma. Fai just told me that his sch needs a Malay teacher and right now, it sounds so appealing. But if its just for a week or two, i have to turn it down but if its for 3 mths or more, it wld pose a serious dilemma whether i wanna work at SGX or as a relief teacher. But hey, why am i worried abt it? I have yet to pass the test!
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