Before i start with my blogging, I would like to express my thanks to my dearest bestfriend Azeannni for being such a complain queen that it eventually paid off.. Muahahah... We were supposed to get row 29 for the BSB concert but due to her willful and complaint-ful nature, she managed to secure the 15th row instead... YYYAAAAYYYY!!!! Now i can feel Brian's sweat splat on my face and can even see his lobang hidung upfront... heheheh.... Thank You AZack!!!! We are so gonna have a blast there. CAN'T WAIT!!!

So back to my "2005 In Perspective", hmmm.. where shall i start.. from the beginning i guess..

Started out yr 2005 as a student who was in her final year as an undergrad, i would say that i was already feeling the heat and confusion of finding my path in life, my career to be exact since the start of the year.. I was stressed abt what i wanna do after graduation even though i still had abt 5 mths to decide..
I would not say that i studied my darnest this year but did make the necessary effort. I come to realise that i made more friends in my 3rd year in comparison to my 1st and 2nd. I began to open up more during my 3rd year. I have some friends from the yr 1s and 2s, i think the examination made my social circle larger in sch cos most of us were in school studying for the exams which was in May.. I remembered that my 1st paper was on 28th May when everyone was already onto their 3rd papeR. The exams started late for me and my last paper was actually the absolute last paper for the whole exam. Since i started studying early during late Feb, i was already burnt out and was ready to pull out all my hair when exams arrived and that is really bad...
When results were released, i was rather disappointed cos i needed just 60 marks from just one paper in order to materialise my 2nd Upper class, but too bad, it didnt happen.. Talking abt classification of degree, i was utterly disappointed when i found out on the student portal that i had a 3rd Class Honours degree.. I just felt my spirit drained out, i felt like how i felt when i got my 'A' Level results.. But Alhamdullilah, it was an error from SIM side cos when i received my results from UOL itself, it stated that i managed to get 2ND Lower Class.. I felt so relieved!! I felt like my 3 years in SIM were not wasted after all...

While waiting for my results, i managed to get a job, my FIRST job!!! Azza told me abt the interview and i decided to go for it. I would say that my eyes were opened when i started working, i was no longer in my comfort zone. I met a lot of people; pple whom i dun normally talk to, pple whom i would normally avoid, pple who proved that the phrase "Dun judge a book by its cover" is so true and pple who possesed such a colourful character.I came to know the meaning of office politics, the relaxed feeling of "curi tulang", the tiredness of doing overtime and the irritation and annoyance in facing difficult clients.
From work, i came to realise that Shaipul is actually really corny and "loya buruk" and describing him as slow is a total understatement. I also came to know a colourful character by the name of Jamila (I know u r reading this Ja) who expanded my horizon in books, clothes, shoes, make-ups, really cool shops with cheap prices, delicious food to eat and also the meaning of being real and true to oneself. I am pretty sure that working in SGX would be very boring without you..
At the same time, i began to know Azza closer.. Enjoyed and pitied the moments when she tried to dodge away from Omarian.. heheh.. kelakar lah.. Enjoyed doing book- shopping together at MPH, exchanging gossips.. But too bad, she got a better offer and left me and Ja.. :( heheh.. but its okie, we are still in contact..

And today, i signed a 2-month extension contract with SGX.. Even though i am already tired of the job, it could at least buy me some time on deciding what do i wanna do with my life.. And talking abt life..
I spent most of time this year being stressed, confused and scared abt my future.. I am still searching for my purpose in life.. I am still looking for the ideal job, the type of job that makes me happy and feel like i have a purpose doing it..
There are a lot of things that i didnt manage to do this year or should i say, for any other year that is.. I didnt lose weight like how i planned to, i still dun put in much effort in my dressing but i have to say that i am making an effort in the make-up department *ehem*..
My supposed trip to Turkey didnt happen cos my mum thought that i would not be able to pay for it, the trip to KL with cousins didnt happen too cos she cant get leave and the Khalawat Ops to Langkawi seems to be nowhere near..I nearly got myself a car but that didnt happen either cos the loan was not cleared.. SSSiigghhh..
But on a brighter side, i do have a job for the 1st time.. Azack and Red are still my bestest buddies amidst our busy schedule.. And i am gonna see my 1st love for the 1st time in person soon!!!!

Since we are at the topic of love, hmmmm... this year, there is pretty much nothing happening in the love section.. Had a crush during the 1st half of the year but like they say, crushes die out.. Truth be told, didnt put in much effort in this area.. If it happens, it will happen.. It bothers me sometimes whenever i meet an old friend, the most frequent question asked would be, "So how? Got bf already?" Is that a new greeting for "Hi!! Its great to see you again!" I dun deny having how-i-wish-i-have-a-bf moments but that is not the number one agenda in my list.. I have wonderful friends to make up for it.. I just wanna get a job that makes me happy!! I just want to find myself and im sure the rest will follow.. I believe in fate and destiny..

I believe that some things are worth waiting for even though the wait might not be so smooth.. Sometimes, whatever u planned would not necessarily come true, it is due to those moments that made u appreciate it more when it is eventually in you hand.. That is life!! To me at least..

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