Tuesday, November 16, 2004
Gone...
This year Raya went ok, nothing fancy as usual, sederhana... We didnt celebrate at all last year cos my grandma passed away 3 days before raya and this yr..hmm.... Sometimes, i feel like as though she is still with us.. sometimes, i feel like i didnt really deal with her loss properly cos whenever the thoughts of her start to appear, i just tried my best to chuck it aside cos i dun think i am strong enuff to relive those moments.. even now, as i am typing this, tears are swelling up.. To me, it feels like as though she went some where else and could not come home.. like, she is still in the hospital and we are expecting her to come back soon... But, that is definitely not the case.. My grandpa is trying his best to get by every day, i know that he is still dealing with the loss but he nevers utter a single word abt it.. Please Allah, give me the strength to be strong for my mum and grandpa....
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