2006 will come to an end in abt 45mins time and another new year wld be welcomed in.

I dunno how shld i conclude my 2006. Red said that i have matured but at the same time, i feel i am still immature in some areas.

Wouldnt in a million years that a mistake made in 2002 wld haunt me in 2006. I think i have come to accept that i was an asshole back then. Yes, i admit it! I guess i have matured in that sense cos i come to realise my mistakes and admit that perhaps i was wrong. I guess i have matured in accepting my mistakes for i am only human. It may not be too late but i have no idea on how to approach the matter cos nothing is more important to me than my pride and my over-sized ego.

For the immature part, hmmm... all i cld say is that i cld have stopped it before anything cld have begun. I guess some part of me was actually using the whole thing to make myself feel better. I dun think it was a mistake, just a bad judgement on my part and the stupidest thing is that i dunno how to put a stop to it. When u keep doing it everyday, it becomes a habit and once a habit is developed, it eventually becomes an addiciton. Tried cold turkey and it didnt work, so hopefully 2007 wld give me renewed strength.

2006 also saw me graduting in April, making my mum's wish came true. It was more of a proud moment for her than for me. 2006 also saw me getting a new job, i have yet to decide if i wanna make it as my career, we will see. So far everthing is ok, i wouldnt say good but it is manageable. The anxious feeling of doing closing wld always be there no matter how long i have worked (mere 5mths).

Trying to cope with my working life while lagging behind in my social life. The only thing that is keeping me sane or insane sometimes, are the Khalawatz. Kept telling myself to be friendlier but Marlina will always be Marlina. But i have to say, working in the customer service line actually made learn how to talk to strangers and open up my horizons to meeting different kinds of pple. I think i need to channel all that to the pple outside of work... friendlier and smiley-er...

So in conclusion, 2006 was an OK year for me, nothing drastic happened and nothing exciting happened too. Oh wait! Something exciting did happended! I saw my first love, the Backstreet Boys!!!! Heeeee.... and hopefully, in 2007, Take That wld make a stop.

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