It has been the loooooooonnnngggggessst time since i last blogged... been too tired with work and fasting... the moment i reached home, i wld be too tired to even switch on the pc...

Latest updates? Hmmmmmm.... sometimes like my job but most of the time questioning myself why do i have to face some shitty customeers...... siiiiggghhhh....

I am scared i will be in this monotonous and routinised cycle for the rest of my working life... i really hope not... i feel like going back to school but i dunno what to study besides, my dad doesnt wanna support me already... dunno whether wanna take a 2nd degree or just go ahead with masters... i need some distraction in my life to break from this monotonous cycle...

Tmr wld be my first time... my very first... i am sure there wld be a lot of blood involve... will it be very painful? Will it hurt when they insert it? Eh.. Eh.... What were u thinking?? I am talking abt blood donation lah!!!

Aaaaahhhhh!!! Pretty scared but looking forward to it at the same time... i am scared of the needles but i have always wanted to do it.. tmr im going to do it for good..

Can i have a special request?? Can Beckham fly all the way from Madrid to hold my hand throughout the process.... soothing my hand, telling me that it wound not hurt... PPPPPLLLLLLLEEEEEAAAASSSEEEEE!!! I would not mind bleeding myself dry for him... heeeeeeeeeee.....

Ok, my hyper-active mind is acting up again... thinking abt all the silly and nonsensical stuffs... daydreaming abt things... hahaha.. there are certain things which i wanna do but i cant just do it... cos its not right morally or religiously or its just can never be done for whatever reason it is...

Here are the list which i wanna do but i know i wld never do it, cos its either i cant or i wont:

1) Fly all the way to Miami to have my rib tattooed by Chris Garver.. dunno what tattoo but i know i wanna have it at my ribs and it has to be done by Chris Garver.. and also have a tattoo of a pin-up girl done by Kat Von Dee.. while having my ribs tattooed by Chris, i wld definitely flirt with him, Ami and Nunez... hahaha....

2)Leave everything behind and travel the world... do odd jobs wherever i go.. and survive on my own.. oh ya, have a boyfriend in every city... city ok, not country muahahahahah.....

3) Learn to play drums and have a rock band of my own.... and have a clandestine affair with a rival band's lead singer... oooohh.. scandalous! And he has to be a brunette with blue eyes... and hairstyle like Arjun Rampal in Kabhi Alvida... yummy... heee....

4)Fly all the way to Madrid and see my dearest Beckham playing right under my nose... had some VIP treatment and have him introduced to me... and be the 2nd Rebecca Loo... muahahah.... but this time, i make sure he leaves Victoria for good... *evil laughter*..

5)Have a baby at a very young age and be a cool mom like in the Gilmore Girls... including the single parent part... having a husband wld be too much of a hassle... hahaha... i dun mind a son or a daughter.. we would face the would togther and be the coolest son&mom/daughter&mom combo.

6)Fly to USA to particiate in the Amazing Race, Survivor and Fear Factor... i wanna see if i can actually do all those gross things, eat cockroach, dive underwater blinfolded, whatever it is, just bring it on.. i also wanna see if i am smart and conniving enuff to outwit, outplay and outlast the rest of the contestants... and Amazing Race, i wld definitely love the travelling part!

7) I wanna be like Oprah Winfrey!!!!!!! Lotsa money and power to help the unfortunate!!!! Not only wld i be leading a luxurious life but i wld be a philantrophist too.... share my wealth and happiness with the world... and not to mention having celebrities as my best friends and neighbours...

These are just my fanciful thoughts.. do not take me so seriously... sometimes, we just need to be more creative and think out of the box.. HAHAHAHA....

Sometimes i just feel like there are so much things bottled up inside...
sometimes things are best left unsaid.....
be strong at all time no matter what...
been there and doing it still... hahh!
only i can steer the course of my journey..
God pls give me strength....

It has been one hell of a week and i must say that i owe it to PMS-ing... i think cos last month i got away without cramps that this month, it has to double the impact..

Roller-coaster of emotional rides, didnt feel like talking much at home.... i hate PMS-ing, it totally screwed up my hormones.. i even cried when i saw Paul cried lah!! What the hell right....

Yesterday i had such a terrible cramp at work and after lunch, i could feel a headache creeping in... by the time i reached home it was throbbing really bad... but i didnt wanna take panadol, so was just hoping that it would get better when morning comes.. but that didnt happen.. the headache prevailed and i had to cave in to taking 2 panadaol extra... so much for not wanting to eat it...

I think i need to take up some class to keep myself busy and distracted... keep myself distracted from things that i shld not be distracted.. hehe... there are classes which i wanna take but i am sure that my mum would not approve of it... siiigghhh....

Ever since i started working, i felt that my mum is like extra sensitve... she would either take offence to some comments i made or answer me with some sarcastic remarks... it is so frustrating sometimes.. but i think i know where she is coming from.. cos i would be out for work in the morning and would only be back ard 8plus... and by then she would be praying and straight to bed.. didnt have time to chat like we used to after dinner.. and i tink cos her arthritis condition is getting bad and that irrtitates her... i wish i could do sthg but i seriously have no idea... sometimes, i find that there is no reason for me to smile... there goes my PMS-ing hormones.... darn... I HATE PMS-ING!!!!!!!!!

Sigghh...... i think i am going insane as the day passes by.... lotsa things runnin thru my mind... pple keep questioning.... not getting along with mum.... coping with work.... im not even surprise if one day i might just have a melt down....

Two days off work is just pure bliss... on wed, it wld only be half day work cos have to attend training in the morning and work would only resume after lunch... then its thurs, then friday... but too bad, on sat i have to attend training.. but then again it is gonna be a handful of us, so there would be much chatting last last week.. on sunday, off to Sentosa for a fun-filled day...

OH ya!!! I saw Tay Ping Hui at HQ last Sat... heee... i was just sharing with my colleagues that i scanned in his Incomeshield abt a mth ago and i can still remember his hp number.. and what do u know, as we were abt to leave, there he was exiting from the counters...his skin was flawless and i absolutely love his built!
but darn, Jasmine served him...

I miss reading!!! But i have no idea whats wrong with me cos i just cant seem to go beyond the first chapter... i just dun have the concentration anymore... and i dunno why... i have already read 3 book but all cant seem to go beyond the first chapter.. uuurrrggghhh....

Anyways, congrats to those who are graduating and those who did well too... the hard work have finally paid off.. CONGRATULATIONS!!!

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