Just got back from gym, didnt go to gym for the whole of last week due to lotsa overtime. We ended early today cos Azza basically knows what shld be done, so we spent only abt 30mins doing cardio. Jo and Shaipul were there too coincidentally. Shaipul wanted to wait for us to go home together but he got tired of waiting so he left.

Oh ya, even since having my Neeon (*grins*) with me, my days travelling to work have become less boring. Im the sort of person who turns music full blast and lose myself in oblivion. That is the thing i like abt having music near me. That is beside the point of what im trying to say. As i was listening to Blink 182's track, i recalled a couple of scenes from Meet the Barkers, like how Travis is such a loving husband despite being a rock star and all. My mind started to wonder and imagine how great it wld have been if i am in a rock band! Hahah... dun laff ok! Due to my hyper-active brain, it starts to wonder on its own till i come to discover my ultimate fantasy (for now!)

My ultimate fantasy consists of me being in a rock band who is touring the world. I imagined myself being either the lead singer or the drummer.. heheh.. and i am the only girl in the band. Wait! This is the only start of my fantasy! Hehe.. In our contract, it was stated that there is no dating among band mmembers because it wld shake the balance of the group. BUT!!! Here comes the exciting part of my fantasy. Even though i am at risk losing my position in the band, i am actually having a clandestine affair with one of my band member! BEST right?! And he must be either the drummer or the singer, if i am the lead singer, then he must be the drummer or vice versa. Haahahah... Crazy right!! AND! I havent finish! My so-called partner must look like the lead singer of The All American Rejects! He is soooo gorgeous!!!!We are supposed to be sooo madly in love with each other but we gotta keep it quiet due to our passion for music and the band! We wld act like as though we hate each other in front of the band mates but actually, actually... MUAHAHAHAHAHAH........ But then again, it still remain as it is, a FANTASY!

So how? My fantasy rocks right??!!!

Just finished watching Love Actually on Star Movies, this is my 2nd time watching it. And like before. .. sssiiggghhh...

There are many different types of love: the love that was betrayed, the love that is never expected, the love that goes beyond languages, the love that is forbidden and the love that is just so lovely... one simple 4 lettered word that has a whole lot of meanings behind it. One word that is so ambiguos but yet offers so much possibilities which every single human being yearns for .

I wld say that i am a skeptic when it comes to love but i do hope sometimes that i wld be proven otherwise, but nonetheless, I believe in the quote i once read, " Love was a lie kept alive in songs and poems, movies and books." Dun you agree?

Aahhh!!! Just finished watching One tree Hill!! I think tonight was the season finale and i cant wait for the next season now that Haley is back. She used to be my fave character in the show but after she left Nathan, i was starting to hate her. And my fave love story among the 3 couples would have to be Peyton and Jake. I think their relationship is way beyond physical attraction, it is about emotional connection. Love them!

I love the quotes in One Tree Hill because it makes me think and search for the deeper meanings of the quotes. I have always believed that OTH has more depth than the O.C, i feel like i can relate more to the characters in OTH. Sometimes after watching OTH, i wld be thinking abt the quotes or even start searching online for them. I love those quotes that touches you and leaves an impression.

Sometimes i feel like i am meandering through life without knowing what am i supposed to do in my life. At times, i do feel surreal that i am actually working and everything is so routinised. I am sure there is more to life than just being sardined in the train every morning, walking hurriedly among the rushing crowds in the underpass and trying to work with the people you may not fancy that much. Sigh......

Is life filled with many questions which i dun seem to have the anwers to it. I wanna feel happy and contented with what i am doing it. I hope i can find the answers or have i already found it but too scared to follow through.

Hmmm... i have stepped into another phase of my life after upon receiving my results. Initially i was so affected by the classification of the degree that i did not realise that it is abt time that i start searching for a stable job. Alhamdulliah, i did not get the stupid 3rd class honours but i gotta check with the sch tmr to reconfirm it just in case. Thanx Azack, Ja and Azza for trying to comfort me on that horrible Friday. Thanx a lot guys..

That Friday was like a journey to the past, it was as if i was living the moments again, when i got my A results. It felt as though the whole world just crumble on me on that fateful Friday, i really didnt wanna live it all over again. I hate the way i felt on that day..sigh... i dun think i wld be able to get thru it.. another failure in my life, i dun think i wld be able to take it.. but praises to God, i didnt have to go thru it..

On Saturday, accompanied Azza and Syuhada to California Fitness before meeting up with my cousin. My mind travelled back to the scene of Jemima working out in the gym in the book Jemima J. I felt like jumping onto the treadmill and run non-stop and burn my fats away.. hahah.. When i reached home, i received a wonderful news that im not classified under 3rd class honours when i opened up my results via mail from London. I actually shouted a "Yes!" outside my door. Was really happy, thank you God!!

When i was just resting at home, it somehow hit me that i am entering into another phase in my life and i felt that i need to change my attitude towards life. I felt that there are certain changes that i need to do so that i wld not be stuck in the past. I felt like i wanna do a lot of things! For a start, i think i need to lose weight and i really mean NEED!! I hope that i wld be able to join Azza tmr to the gym. And also, i wanna be a happy person! I think i need to be more optimistic abt life, i dun wanna be that old lady in the coming years who lived her life wondering " what if I had..". I dun wanna be that way!!!

Back to searching for a job, i still have no idea what i wanna do.. there are 2 options in my head but i dunno if they are realistic enuff. But i know for sure that i dun wanna be stuck in an office unless dah takdir kan, then that one i dunno lah... but i hope to get a job that allows me to travel and move ard cos i know that i have a short attention span if i am stuck doing the same thing over and over again...

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