Before i start with my blogging, I would like to express my thanks to my dearest bestfriend Azeannni for being such a complain queen that it eventually paid off.. Muahahah... We were supposed to get row 29 for the BSB concert but due to her willful and complaint-ful nature, she managed to secure the 15th row instead... YYYAAAAYYYY!!!! Now i can feel Brian's sweat splat on my face and can even see his lobang hidung upfront... heheheh.... Thank You AZack!!!! We are so gonna have a blast there. CAN'T WAIT!!!

So back to my "2005 In Perspective", hmmm.. where shall i start.. from the beginning i guess..

Started out yr 2005 as a student who was in her final year as an undergrad, i would say that i was already feeling the heat and confusion of finding my path in life, my career to be exact since the start of the year.. I was stressed abt what i wanna do after graduation even though i still had abt 5 mths to decide..
I would not say that i studied my darnest this year but did make the necessary effort. I come to realise that i made more friends in my 3rd year in comparison to my 1st and 2nd. I began to open up more during my 3rd year. I have some friends from the yr 1s and 2s, i think the examination made my social circle larger in sch cos most of us were in school studying for the exams which was in May.. I remembered that my 1st paper was on 28th May when everyone was already onto their 3rd papeR. The exams started late for me and my last paper was actually the absolute last paper for the whole exam. Since i started studying early during late Feb, i was already burnt out and was ready to pull out all my hair when exams arrived and that is really bad...
When results were released, i was rather disappointed cos i needed just 60 marks from just one paper in order to materialise my 2nd Upper class, but too bad, it didnt happen.. Talking abt classification of degree, i was utterly disappointed when i found out on the student portal that i had a 3rd Class Honours degree.. I just felt my spirit drained out, i felt like how i felt when i got my 'A' Level results.. But Alhamdullilah, it was an error from SIM side cos when i received my results from UOL itself, it stated that i managed to get 2ND Lower Class.. I felt so relieved!! I felt like my 3 years in SIM were not wasted after all...

While waiting for my results, i managed to get a job, my FIRST job!!! Azza told me abt the interview and i decided to go for it. I would say that my eyes were opened when i started working, i was no longer in my comfort zone. I met a lot of people; pple whom i dun normally talk to, pple whom i would normally avoid, pple who proved that the phrase "Dun judge a book by its cover" is so true and pple who possesed such a colourful character.I came to know the meaning of office politics, the relaxed feeling of "curi tulang", the tiredness of doing overtime and the irritation and annoyance in facing difficult clients.
From work, i came to realise that Shaipul is actually really corny and "loya buruk" and describing him as slow is a total understatement. I also came to know a colourful character by the name of Jamila (I know u r reading this Ja) who expanded my horizon in books, clothes, shoes, make-ups, really cool shops with cheap prices, delicious food to eat and also the meaning of being real and true to oneself. I am pretty sure that working in SGX would be very boring without you..
At the same time, i began to know Azza closer.. Enjoyed and pitied the moments when she tried to dodge away from Omarian.. heheh.. kelakar lah.. Enjoyed doing book- shopping together at MPH, exchanging gossips.. But too bad, she got a better offer and left me and Ja.. :( heheh.. but its okie, we are still in contact..

And today, i signed a 2-month extension contract with SGX.. Even though i am already tired of the job, it could at least buy me some time on deciding what do i wanna do with my life.. And talking abt life..
I spent most of time this year being stressed, confused and scared abt my future.. I am still searching for my purpose in life.. I am still looking for the ideal job, the type of job that makes me happy and feel like i have a purpose doing it..
There are a lot of things that i didnt manage to do this year or should i say, for any other year that is.. I didnt lose weight like how i planned to, i still dun put in much effort in my dressing but i have to say that i am making an effort in the make-up department *ehem*..
My supposed trip to Turkey didnt happen cos my mum thought that i would not be able to pay for it, the trip to KL with cousins didnt happen too cos she cant get leave and the Khalawat Ops to Langkawi seems to be nowhere near..I nearly got myself a car but that didnt happen either cos the loan was not cleared.. SSSiigghhh..
But on a brighter side, i do have a job for the 1st time.. Azack and Red are still my bestest buddies amidst our busy schedule.. And i am gonna see my 1st love for the 1st time in person soon!!!!

Since we are at the topic of love, hmmmm... this year, there is pretty much nothing happening in the love section.. Had a crush during the 1st half of the year but like they say, crushes die out.. Truth be told, didnt put in much effort in this area.. If it happens, it will happen.. It bothers me sometimes whenever i meet an old friend, the most frequent question asked would be, "So how? Got bf already?" Is that a new greeting for "Hi!! Its great to see you again!" I dun deny having how-i-wish-i-have-a-bf moments but that is not the number one agenda in my list.. I have wonderful friends to make up for it.. I just wanna get a job that makes me happy!! I just want to find myself and im sure the rest will follow.. I believe in fate and destiny..

I believe that some things are worth waiting for even though the wait might not be so smooth.. Sometimes, whatever u planned would not necessarily come true, it is due to those moments that made u appreciate it more when it is eventually in you hand.. That is life!! To me at least..

I was surfing thru the net, and came across this test... its quite true, nope, actually most of it are true.. esp the last sentence..its really scary..

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. You give and take equally in relationships. You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

And this is so true.... sometimes, i empathises with other pple so much that i dun think abt myself.. the relationship part is true but i dun fall in love easily, the career part and the charity are also true.. i would be over the moon if i can work with Mercy Relief...

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

At Mac now using someone's irritating's new PowerBook... So i guess i will be inactive for abt few days till i get back again.. So thanx Syafiq (im being grateful after much persuasion for it.. ahahah)

I know this wld make me sound like a groupie, childish, delusional and crazy but I DUN CARE!!! I am finally going to meet my truely 1st love!! I can already see him waving at me and blowing kisses at me.. Oh my beloved BRIAN THOMAS LITTRELL!!!! AAAAHHHHH!!!! I am so going to the Never Gone's Backstreet Boys concert!!!!!!!! I would not miss for the world!! Finally my one of my teenage dream is coming true... Insya-Allah.. I dun mind the $160 i am spending as long as i can see my one and only most beloved boyband perform right in front of my eyes!!!

The 8 long years of waiting and waiting and waiting and hoping and hoping and hoping has finally come true... they are going to be in Spore on the 24th Jan.. They will be breathing the same air as i am... AAAHHHH!!!! I really hope that no cork-ups will happen cos i have waited far too long for this... I am finally going to see Brian Thomas Littrell, Nickholas Jean Carter, Kevin Scott Richardson, Howard Dwayne Dorough and Alexander James McLean!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT IT THAT WAY!!!!!

Oh ya, my pc is back and running.. Thank God nothing serious took place or els ei wld have lost all my important data...

Using a library's pc right now cos my pc at home crashed!!!

So peeps, i will be unactive for awhile till my pc has fully recovered.. till then...

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