Expected a normal day but left work crying.

Mummy called and before I knew it, I was crying while talking to her. I was glad I didnt cry at my workplace but crying while crossing the street was not a good place either.

Like Azeanni said it in her blog, this too shall pass. My tears are too precious to be wasted on stupid things.

I was expecting to have Monday blues today but that did not exactly happen. I was processing a new case and was waiting for the agent when Irene approached me and asked me to go Jurong instead. I think I shld be kinda irritated cos I was already at work and now, they were asking me to go back Jurong, but I was actually looking forward to it. I have said it before that I prefer Jurong's working environment better. The change of air was welcomed with open arms and I quickly finished my transaction, packed my stuffs and leave. Monday was supposed to be a boring and lifeless day, but today was otherwise.

As usual, Jurong was busy and buzzing with lotsa pple. Seriously, I dun mind Jurong's crowd cos most of the customers would not give much headache in comparison to HQ. The queue stayed stationary at 40plus till 5plus and slowly, the crowd receded. Time passes by really fast when you are super busy and before I knew it, it was already past 6.30pm and I was with the last customer of the day. My last customer was cute (literally and figuratively), he kept asking me lotsa question regarding his bike insurance which later evolve to Life Insurance then to Travel Insurance. For a guy who is 21 yrs old, he could ask a lot of "auntie" questions. I think he left my counter at 7pm. My colleague kept saying that he cld be the mystery shopper... hmmm.. well, at least he left my counter saying Thank You more than once and was smiling in appreciation cos I entertained his "auntie-questions." Shld I just ask for a transfer to Jurong???? Hmmmmmmmmmmmm............. tempting...............................

Yday was Rosi's bday party and it was so tiring. Earlier that morning, I was already busy helping mummy prepared some food for the celebration. I was pretty cranky cos I didnt get much sleep the night before. I was actually lying down at the kitchen while talking to my mum who was cooking.. hehe... tak senonoh seh... I think I am cranky when I do not get enuff food or sleep. I will keep on whining that I am hungry till I am hungry no more and I am easily irritated when I am sleepy. So pple, u now know when are the best time to avoid me.

Anyways, the party was a small one, they invited a few close friends over but I was told that more pple actually came after I left. Angah's friends had to work, so most of them came after work and that someone too came after I left. Shld I feel relieve or a chance wasted? Relieved cos I dun have to make conversation or hear my cousin's incessant teasing. A chance wasted cos the situation would actually propel me to start talking to him again. Well, whatever...............

I think I am tired of wasting my time...... just realised it... I think I gotta occupy my time and mind with better things...

So sleepy and tired right now. Since I am sleepy, I shld go sleep right? But every weekdays I go to sleep early, so it wld be a waste to sleep early too on weekends. I think I am rambling due to sleepiness.

Today was my first day ever working on a Sat at HQ. I know! It has been nearly 6mths but today was my first time ever working on a Sat at HQ. I felt so tired and sleepy after work but that feeling changed to self-pity when I was making my way to the MRT station. I saw pple walking ard shopping and enjoying their weekends while I just finished work. Siigghh..... what to do..

I realised that time passed much faster when I was in Jurong, that cld probably due to the larger crowds. After work, went to Pandan Loop to settle sthg then went to Pasir Panjang Park for dinner with family and couz+gf. My family used to frequent there when I was a kid. Come to think of it, my family do frequent lotsa eating places when I was much younger. Until recently, our frequent seafood place was at Perling. But too bad, with all the crimes reported there, my dad refused to go to that place anymore cos it is really "ulu" and dark at night... I miss the Lala dish and the Gong-Gong!!

Been a bit busy and pms-ing a lot for the past 2 weeks, but i gotta say that this mth's pms-ing cld possibly be the worst i had ever experienced. No wonder i was feeling sad and emotional for most of last week. I have been dragging my feet to work, at work and from work. Felt really irritated most of the time at the demanding and ridiculous customers. I think last week was the worst I had ever felt, felt like quitting there and then.

Over the weekend, I attended Dez's wedding at one of the church in Hougang. Omg, it was such a sweet wedding. I have to admit that I was tearing up looking at the couple. They presented some slides of their wedding photos and they also suprised each other. The bride actually made a slideshows of their babies photos till adulthood with herself singing as the background music. It was so sweet ok! For Dez, he sang live for her and the song was actually written by him. Siiigghhh... so sweet!!! How could i not tear up? I have to admit for that moment, I wished there is someone special whom I can do all those sweet things for. Seeing the lovely couple, made me wonder of "THE ONE". Sigghh.. shall not dwell on that...

After the ceremony, hurried down to Westmall to catch 300 with my couz. Every single Spartans had 6-packs ok! Lotsa killing, spurting bloods and chopped heads in the movie. The character Leonidas was really charismatic! I felt like being a Spartan too! Hahah.. After the movie, rushed down to Bukit Panjang Plaza to make a cameo appearance for a small gathering organised by Red. It has been a long time since i last saw her.. Busy, busy, busy!

On Tuesday, we went to Night Safari!!! So fun!!!!!! I gotta see tigers!!!! I love tigers!!!! If I could have any animal as my pet, I wld definitly choose tiger cubs! Adorable! It was Khalawatz-minus-Red and thanx to Fiq's friend, we got to enjoy staff discount and free tram rides!! I gotta say though, some of the routes that we took were pretty freaky and scary. At this one particular route, we were like clinging on to each other cos it was dark and the bats were just a touching distance. Scary!!
Paid a visit to Crouch's long lost cousins, the giraffes.. heee.. and they were "kawaii"- like the Japs tourists claimed. I wanna go there again!! And to the zoo too!!!!

Tmr, I am on leave!! Yayy!! Any off days or leaves is like heaven to me, no work!! Planned to go out with mummy dearest tmr. On Sat, wanna go funfair but tat dun seem possible cos gotta take care of grandpa and on Sunday, I will be at cousin's place to celebrate his gf's b-day... and hmmm.. i think i will be seeing someone there too..

I have been really sleepy and lazy for the past weeks. Just didnt feel like going online even though i wanted to blog abt sthg. Last night, i slept wearing my specs with Neil Gaiman's American Gods (coutesy of Ja) by my side. Come the next day, mummy told me that i slept with the tv on.. sheesh...

I am swimming again after eons years and boy did i feel like drowning! I actually forgot how to swim!!! I can stay afloat but my hands and legs werent coordinating well, i had to observe other swimmers to have a refresher course. I used to think that if others were drowning, i might be able to save them, but now, i think i am the one who needs to be saved.

Been doing some thinking lately, abt friendships and life. Realised that friends do change, perhaps i did change too. Disappointed in some, thankful for some and also confused for/by some. I think i gotta appreciate those who have always been by my side and shld make more attempts in keeping contacts with some friends worth keeping.

I am still unsure as to what is my purpose in life. I am turning 24 soon and i have yet to find the answer for my question to life. Sometimes, i feel detached from work when i have to deal with irritating customers. Deep inside me, there wld be this small voice saying that there is more to this, that my life is more than just listening to some stupid demands or problems from some stupid irritating customers. I am a pathological skeptic, even though i kept telling myself to keep every thoughts positive, it wld be otherwise. Uuuurrgh!!

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