Thursday, November 25, 2004

MY ANTHEMN!

Finally!!! I have found the song i have been searching for on iwebtunes.... i really love this song! It is the theme song from "One Tree Hill". Not only do i love the series but i love their theme songs too!! I just find the lyrics are very positive!! Hope to buy the album soon!! Cant wait to get my hands on it.

I Don't Wanna Be by Gavin Degraw.

I dont need to be anything other
Than a prison guard's son
I dont need to be anything other
Than a specialist's son
I dont have to be anyone other
Than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where im going, is knowing where im coming from

I dont want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to doIs think of me
and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who Im supposed to be

I dont want to be anything other than me
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I cant be the only one who's learned

I dont want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to doOr who I'm supposed to be
I dont want to be anything other than me

Can I have everyone's attention please?
If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situation-made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody

I dont want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
Im tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I dont want to be anything other than me

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Sunday, November 21, 2004

Raya....

Below are some pic taken from Raya celebration.. All the pics consists my 3 cousins from my mum's side.. The only 3, but syukur cos got those 3, if not, i think i will die of boredom with no siblings and cousins... My dad has lotsa siblings but i dun even know half of them cos most are in Malaysia and we only meet once in a blue moon..

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The pic of my 3 beloved cousins with our foster bro in pink.. Whenever he comes to my house, he will be sick.. Wonder why..

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My only 3 cousins from my mum's side.. With Sulaiman in the middle, the only male cousins(maternal), thats why my mum adores him.. So jealous!

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Pics of my 2 gal cousins, Along and Syahidah.. Simling tiredly...

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Tuesday, November 16, 2004

Gone...

This year Raya went ok, nothing fancy as usual, sederhana... We didnt celebrate at all last year cos my grandma passed away 3 days before raya and this yr..hmm.... Sometimes, i feel like as though she is still with us.. sometimes, i feel like i didnt really deal with her loss properly cos whenever the thoughts of her start to appear, i just tried my best to chuck it aside cos i dun think i am strong enuff to relive those moments.. even now, as i am typing this, tears are swelling up.. To me, it feels like as though she went some where else and could not come home.. like, she is still in the hospital and we are expecting her to come back soon... But, that is definitely not the case.. My grandpa is trying his best to get by every day, i know that he is still dealing with the loss but he nevers utter a single word abt it.. Please Allah, give me the strength to be strong for my mum and grandpa....

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Thursday, November 11, 2004

A Tribute to A Great Leader.

It is a sad day for all Muslims all over the world today, the relentless fighter for freedom has finally return to Him. I have to say that it has been a sad month cos first, Bush won the election again and now, one of true Islamic fighter passed away.

The Israelis called him the "Godfather of Terrorists", hah! what an irony! A country who uses its own army to attack refugees and innocents calls the helpless a terrorist! What a joke! Just because it is nation-sponsored attacks, it makes it less inhumane? Tell that to the school girl who was shot 20 times due to just mere susupicion that she was carrying a bomb? 20 times!!! For goodness sake!! She was going to sch! A mistake? Kiss my arse! That seemed to me more like hatred!

I believed that the late Arafat was doing all he can to protect his pple from the non-stop violence and to achieve a free Palestine but it is his execution that was poor. Suicide-bombing is not the way out. Not only it is strictly against the teaching of Islam but also, it further tarnished the image of Islam in the eyes of the outsider. However, I have to praise him for not faltering to the demands of the Israelis and for standing firm against them. He held stongly to his beliefs and principle and even till his death, he was still fighting for his pple and beloved land.

I just hope that whoever takes over will not be easily swayed by the Israeli govt and stand firm in fighting for a free Palestine. Nothing would be more sad than to see Palestine falls into the wrong hands. Palestine hold a long, great Islamic history and to constantly read abt the pple struggling is just so heartbreaking and what more when they lost a leader that they looked up to and held so highly. Have faith my dear sisters and bros, for peace will be yours.

Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh nya, semoga tanah Palestin kembali tenang and penduduk nya kembali aman. Amin.

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Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Cinta Luar Biasa/Extraordinary Love

Just finished watching "Cinta Luar Biasa", it is really a nice movie... not ur usual romance movie where the lead actor is a hunky, good lookking and macho person.. The leading actor was played by Saiful Apek! Can u believe it? Apek in a romance film? How funny and weird can that be? Nonetheless, it was really a nice movie... Got humour, a lil suspense and of course the normal mushy, lovey-dovey scenes... what do u expect from a romantic-comedy film?

But i shld salute the producer for thinking outside the box in getting Apek to play the leading actor alongside the beautiful Nasha Aziz! Yes! Nasha Aziz! Lucky he! heheh... I think everytime i look at Nasha Aziz, she seems prettier and sweeter....

I think the "moral of the story" was very sweet and real... It reminded those who fantasize too much on a perfect partner to keep check with reality and that fate has a way with things... Like how the film goes, even the ugliest guy can find true love from the prettiest lady.. You can never know wat will happen in the future... Like what the line from the movie said, " Today will be yesterday and tomorrow will be today", so we gottta make the best out of everything even though the outcome cld be in our favour or otherwise... I guess what keeps everyone going is hope and faith.. if that is gone, life would not be worth living...

Anyways, just gonna leave you with some line from the film

"Cinta ibarat rumah,

walaupun ia tak cantik, walaupun is tak mewah.

Yang penting, kita bahagia di dalam nya."

In English,

"Love is like a house,

it may not be pretty, it may not be luxurious.

What is most important, is that we are happy in it."

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Monday, November 08, 2004

By Myself.

It has been a maddening two days... Felt really down and just gloomy... Sometimes, it just never seems enuff to give ur all and never be appreciated for it...

BY MYSELF.

What do i do to ignore them behind me?

Do i follow my instincts blindly?

Do i hide my pride from these bad dreams

And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?

Do i sit here and try to stand it?

Or do i try to catch them red-handed?

Do i trust some and get fooled by phoniness.

Or do i trsut nobody and live in loneliness?

Because i can't hold on when i'm stretched so thin

I make the right moves but i'm lost within

I put on my daily facade but then

I just end up getting hurt again

By myself.

I ask why, but in my mind

I find i can't rely on myself.

I can't hold on

To what i want when i'm stretched so thin.

It's all too much to take in

I can't hold on

To anything watching everything spin

With thoughts of failures sinking in

If i turn my back i'm defenseless

And to go blindly seems senseless

If i hide my pride and let it all go on

Then they'll take from me till everything is gone.

If i let them go i'll be outdone

But i try to catch them i'll be outrun

If i'm killed by the questions like a cancer

Then i'll be buried in the silence of the answer

By myself.

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Saturday, November 06, 2004

Dengdeng!

Been quite a busy day today... went to sch in the morning for CF, the lecturer was cracking some cheeky jokes and that lightened up the room cos he was discussing abt this really confusing topic, Arbitrage Pricing Theory and everyone looked so blur...

After class, went to the bank to do some transactions... I just hate it when the person queueing behind you tend to stand really close to you and u can feel them breathing down ur neck! That is so yucky and scary!!! Today is like the 2nd time it has happened to me... Cant they just keep 3 feet away fr u and wait patiently?!

In the evening went to Geylang with the hope of buyin tudung and washing my eyes... hehe... biasalah kan... Bought 4 tudung, but unfortunately, my eyes werent even washed at all..hehe.. Bought lotsa food home but in the end only eat the dendeng... perhaps the rest is for sahur...

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Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Still Looking for The Right Skins!

I have been surfing the net for the perfect skin for my blog and i have yet to find that really shout out to me... Been really frustrating.. Just cant find that perfect one... Hmmm... I am beginning to think that i am fussy... Just need a black one...

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