The past few days have been really tiring, really tiring that i slept for 4hrs in the afternoon today.. After Zuhur, my eyes cld barely open and when i finally opened up my eyes, its 5.30pm.. And i still feel sleepy.. haha.. LAZY!!

THURSDAY....
Since thursday, my schedule was already packed. Had class in the afternoon but before going to class, i mopped the whole house by myself cos my mum was complaining that her feet were feeling sticky ( my mum is so particular abt floors, even though it was not sticky at all) and that her knees were hurting and she had to go to the doctor. So i was home alone, blasted the radio to the full volume and mopped my heart out. And by the time to get ready to sch, i was already feeling tired and wanted to just laze ard the house and ended up going to sch 20mins late. After class, headed straight back home cos after Maghrib got Quran recital class and it was 1st lesson for this yr after 2 1/2mths long break due to fasting and raya.. The ustaz said im getting better cos my voice has finally managed to follow the tune and can go up and down.. haha.. its was fun, cos the Ustaz is funny and seeing how the Quran verses cld be read in many different intonation was really interesting. After the Quran class, it was already 10.15pm and still had some ironing to do for Friday and Saturday ( my mum is a firm believer of getting things ready early, but even if i do so, i will still be late). Decided to watch Ikhlas and The Bachelor 1st before the ironing and ended up going to bed at 1am.

FRIDAY.....
Had morning class and didnt want to be late so ended up taking cab yet again ( i spent so much $ on cab since sc started). Had CF and as usual, i was hanging on to every word he had to say cos all seemed very important.. Wanted to stay for lunch with Shanta but could not cos i was rushing home to go to Johore with my cousins and all.. We were supposed to depart at 2.30pm but as usual, my cousins were late and we only headed out to Tuas at 3.30pm. I was driving my cousin's car and he was driving another cousin's car which we rented. Wanna know why? Cos i forgot to drive a manual car!! Ever since i got my driving license, i have been driving auto car that my left leg now is incapable of doing any clutching!! Bad, bad... We ate our heart out at an Orang Asli's restaurant, its really tasty and cheap and u got the sea and kelong as ur view.. very soothing and filing.. After that headed out to Angsana to do some shopping, i reallllly wanted to buy shoes cos the one i bought at KL is apparently to big for me and i sold it to my cousin. There were a lot of pretty choices at Angsana but no size!!! They dun have big size for my big feet!! And when they do, the cutting is to small and my feet felt suffocated!! And i ended up buying nothing!!! NOTHING!!! Can u believe it?!! After all the shopping spree ( apparently not me, its my auntie and cousins), we headed down to Singgah Selalu for supper and was pleasantly shocked that it had changed so much! This is what happened when you always uses the 2nd link, u dunno what is happening to the places at the 1st link... After all the shopping and eating, we reached home at 12midnight.

TODAY.......
After a late night, i was forced to get out of bed at 6.30am to go for a session of Captain Ball/ Netball practice!! I just wanna sleep!! But too bad, already made the commitment. But luckily i was driving so i took my time getting ready and yes, i was late. Complacency sets in! Since my cousins live in Bukit Batok, i was kinda familiar with the roads so there weren't any hassle to get there but ended up parking quite a distance from the court. All my sec sch and JC life, i have been avoiding Netball, and today i had to confront it. I played all kinds of ball game, Volleyball, Basketball, Captain Ball, Soccer, FloorBall but never Netball. I always thought that Netball kinda sucks cos there are too many restrictions and i dun like restrictions when i play sports. For the 1st 10mins, i was BLUR, really BLUR cos i have no idea what is happening! Cannot do this, cannot do that, i felt so lost and confused. Thanx to the aunties, they kept telling me the rules as we go along, well, u learn sthg new everyday.. The team we are training with is so power, a real rojak i tell u. Got Malay teenagers, chinese teens and also aunties but dun play-play with these aunties, they are happening. They were running all over the place and made us felt old and rusty! They are so active! I so envy them, cos even though they are in the lates 40s and early 50s, they are still so upbeat and full of live! I am going to 22 soon, and already feeling old and jaded! Gotta changed that! Planned to make it a weekly thingy to keep fit and make new friends! But with exams ard the corner, i think it pretty hard.

Surprisingly, today went well given that it is a Monday.. Was late for school for abt 20mins, sometimes, i just dunno what went wrong that caused me to be late even though i already got my stuffs ready the night before.. Must be complacency!

ICP went well today, Mr Nageb's jokes today was actually funny today... He can be so corny sometimes that no one wld laff in the class.. poor him.. And i didnt hand in my assignment which was due today and unfortunately, he asked me, but its okie, me and him can "chin-cai".. hahaha..

Planned to go to the bank after class with Mary but was pleasantly surprised to find out that Tanya and Shanta didnt have MSM class in the afternoon. We decided to have lunch together at Clementi McDonalds and had a great laffs.. talked abt American Pie! hahah.. apparently, i am the one who have seen all the 3 movies.. i know, i know! The movie is a bit gross but u have to agree that it is damn funny.. After the lunch, they decided to accompany me to the bank and they had to wait for a good 30mins.. but from the queue, i cld see that they managed to entertain themselves very well..

Reached home at abt 4pm and it suddenly struck to me that there is Ally McBeal on Star World at 5pm! Usually, i caught the last 15mins of it or i totally forgot abt it! But fortunately today, i remembered!! I was laughing hysterically watching it!! I RREEEAAALLLYYYY MIIISSS IT!!! I miss Ally's neurotic-ness (is there such a word?) and also the quirkyness of John Cage! Really, really missed it!.. hahah.. cant stop smiling thinking abt it.. remember the imaginary dancing baby? remember having a theme song? I remembered being hooked to it since sec sch and watch it avidly every week, season after season.. I also remembered Felicity and how fickle-minded she was deciding between Noel and Ben... sigh.. those were the days!! And also FRIENDS!!! Why do good programme hafta end???!! Those programme were a bunch of wholesome, good fun! Errr.. perhaps not Ally McBeal, but on second thought, i think it is cos it was abt friendship, being weird and quirky, abt searching for love, it is definitely fun!!

Finally i am able to smile from ear to ear cos had a great time with my gfs at Seoul Garden.. We ate and ate and ate till we cant ate no more, Azack even had to go to the washroom to relieve herself.. haha.. Initially we were pissed cos the kids eating behind us decide to have some kind of food fight and too bad for us cos they seemed to have really bad accuracy and an egg yolk came flying and hit Red on the back.. They were apologizing to us profusely and lucky for them, we were in such a pleasant mood that we overlooked it.. Count ur blessings kid!

I kept bbqing the chickens and kept piling them up on Red's and Azack's plate even though they mentioned they were already full.. Azack even had to stand up eating the ice-cream.. hahah... see how full we are! And i thought that my stomach was abt to explode at any moment... gelojoh! When we were abt to leave 2 guys came and sat in front of us.. 1 chinese and the other malay.. The chinese guy was so cute i tell u! He was wearing a snowcap( not everyone can pull it off!) and he reminded me of my baby, Beckham! But the 3 of us was wondering how come such a cute and cool guy doing with one kental malay mat!! Sigh....

Oh no... I hear Carson calling me!! Need to watch Queer Eye!!

Never felt so horrible for such a long time... really, really low and sad abt certain things. Things have not been going my way since Friday morning. I was up abt 10 mins early before my usual wake up time but i have no idea why i end up going to sch taking a cab, so missed like 15mins of the CF lecture which is really bad cos for CF if u miss a little, u will be lost. So i was lost for abt 15mins into the lecture!

I was looking forward to Friday cos i was finally going to meet my 2 bestfriends and were planning to have so much fun on that day. But i can never be more wrong! It did not go well the moment i made one bad call. It pretty much went downhill after that and i was so angry at myself! Things just did not go my way after making that stupid decision! So went to RELC to pay the exam fee and found out that there are a LOT of pple waiting for their numbers to be called, my queue no was 411 and they were still at 250! I was suppose to meet my friends at 3.30pm and it was already 3pm.

After paying the fee, the time was well over 3.30pm and it was 5pm! I felt so horrible cos i am making my friends wait for over an hour plus and it has not been a great day for me! Felt really horrible but still tried to keep my spirits up cos i was going to meet my friends and cld unload eveything and also the thought of meeting Taufik just perks me up a little bit. But no, no. None of that happen. Didnt manage to unload and keep everything bottled instead and missed Taufik by a mere 10mins and were too bum out to rush all the way to PS. At that point was already feeling so low amidst all the crowd, wanted to spill but dun think anyone was in the mood to hear. I know the reason why they are angry at me and how i wish they know how angry i am with myself and how unbearble it was at that time. Decided to head home and was feeling so horrible that tears were flowing on the journey home, the lady beside me must be thinking i am mad. But hey, I AM HAVING A VERY BAD DAY!

Saturday was an escape for me cos my family and i were going to Johore, balik kampung. For that moment, everything was fine. Eat and eat, watch sepaktakraw tournamant on Sunday morning before heading home. On the journey home, the feeling of sadness haunts me back but tried to push it away cos i was driving. Reached home at 5.30pm and my cousins were already making numerous calls asking where am i cos we have a soccer match to catch. To make matter worst, a headache was creeping in. My mum was kind enuff to offer cab fare and told me not to worry abt the chores and let her do it. Put down my stuffs, had a changed of clothing, swallowed 2 tablets of Panadol and ran down the stairs and flag a cab.

Reached the stadium at abt 6.20pm and half of the stadium was filled! It was a sight to behold, it was a sea of red!! Everyone was so pumped up to see S'pore win! The moment the match start, so did my trash talking. Dun worry, no foul languages escaped from my mouth but boy, did i trash talk! The guy sitting in front of me kept looking at me whenever i say sthg. Hello!! This a football match!!! Of course u have the urge to boo, jeered, cheered, scream foul whenever a S'pore player is on the ground. And boy, do i feel good shouting it all out!! It was such a memory to cherish! Watching the Lions lifting the trophy in front of the capacity home crowd was just so amazing! My cousins and i were screaming endlessly for Bhaikhaki, whenenver he got the ball we go, " Come on Kiki!".. that was crazy! I was so happy and proud to have witnessed it! It has been a long time since the stadium was fully covered with fans wearing red!I really hope that the Lions will maintain their standards or better still improve cos finally, they are doing sthg right to revive our faith in them.

Decided to go to sch late today cos i really needed the sleep, so went in during break. The moment i stepped into the sch my fine mood began to take a turn. 3 of my friends commented that i look stress and unhappy. Monday blues? Perhaps..... It cld be cos of the emotions i felt on Friday is getting the better of me..

Went to the hospital just and git back at abt 2hrs ago, just in time to catch the Bachelor... One of my relatives was critically ill so we rushed down to the hospital after i got home from sch.. Sometimes, i hate being in hospital cos it reminded me of my late grandma, but luckily my relative is warded in NUH and not Alexandra, it is like a phobia now if go to Alexandra cos my family members wld be reminded of my late grandma and how we went there to and fro for abt 1 mth...

Anyways, dun wanna dwell on depressing topic and shall focus on my weekends. I am so looking forward to it. Tmr, which is friday, i am suppose to have an ICP consultation fr 4pm to 6pm but i am not going! Guess where am i going?? I am going to town to see TAUFIK!!!! He will be in town launching his album!! Cant wait to see him and get his album!! Yay!! My friends were like saying that i am seeking closure from all these Taufik phenomenon cos i told them that after seeing Taufik tmr, i will not be Taufik-crazy... hmmmm... is that possible?? I hope so!!

And then on Saturday, my dad planned to BALIK KAMPUNG!!! Yay!! I like!! Cos it wld be really relaxing, its good for pre-exam jitters.. haha... But too bad ah, this time balik kampung dun have durian!! My couz at kampung said that they are just starting to "bloom", (whatever it means) and we can expect a durian feast in 2-3mths time.. The other time when we balik kampung, the whole front potch was filled with durians!! Me and my mum were like eating non stop... hehe.. but too bad, no durian waiting for us this time round...

And finally on Sunday, the highlight of the weekend!!! I am gonna watch the Lions lift up the Tiger Cup!!! I really hope that they will win the title to end their title-drought! I hope to see Baikhaki Kaizan... he so cute!! Me and 5 other cousins will be making our way to the National Stadium!! Cant wait for that!! I just hope that i can make it on time from Malaysia!! I hope my dad does not decide to go home in the evening!!

Oh yah!! I forgot to mention that my baby, Becks, is now a Goodwill Ambassador of the UNICEF!! He so sweet!! He is involved in the project of gathering funds for the Tsunami victims. He even helped out in the packing... Isnt he sweet?? Awww.....

The 1st day of our 3-days shopping adventure.. 8am at Lavender St waiting excitedly for our bus to arrive!!

With BIG smile on after one whole day of non-stop shopping.... Too bad the pic did not capture our mountains of bags infront...

At the train/monorail station. On the way to Petaling Street.. So excited to get on KL train for the 1st time...

Our 1st attempt to take a train in KL... Our adventurous senses come alive!!! Btw, at this pt, everyone is staring at us...

At the streets of Masjid India... It was just the 1st stop of the day... More shoppings ahead...

Everywhere i go, my baby is always with me....

Outside our pathetic hotel room!!! But shopping made us smile... :-)

Me and my couz; at the fountain behind KLCC...

At the hotel lobby before heading out to eat roti canai and home!!!

At KLCC, our second last stop before home... We cld actually feel the ground shaking, or was it paranoia?

At Puduraya, waiting for our bus home.... Goodbye KL, hope to see you again....

I wanted to post the KL trip photos but dunno whats wrong but i cant log in to Hello, i decided to share some of my New yr resolutions...haha.. yah, i know, its a little late but better late than never.

Sometimes, i hate my brain cos it always work overtime, it always think of nonsensical stuffs which suddenly appear out of nowhere. It wld be fine if these thoughts just appear for a few min but no, it lingers for like days and make me feel really frustrated. Frustrated abt what? About most of the things happening ard me. I think i know why, it must be PMS.. yes, that must be it!

So another year has begun but i still feel no different, i still feel like im still stuck in 2004. No, i think i do feel different! I feel a lot more scared!! Scared of what the future brings! What am i suppose to do after graduation? What am i suppose to do on this earth? It is a scary thought, for me at least, cant say for the rest cos some of them basically know what they want.. Actually, i do know i want but i dunno if im brave enuff to follow it thru.. Sometimes, i feel like i am only dreaming and dreaming abt it but have no courage to actually do it cos i have too many responsibilties.. Do i become selfish and follow my dreams or be "normal" like everyone else and restrict myself to working in an office??

Watched Oprah in the morning just now when i woke up, the topic for today's talk was Social Anxiety Disorder. I cant believe that there such as that! I dunno that such disorder exist, how ignorant can i get but its better late than never, right? Basically, Social Anxiety Disorder is some kind of illness when an individual feel really, really nervous when they are ard pple. They feel like they can have panic attack at any moment. Their palms are sweating, breathe heavily, feel like everyone is looking and judging them. They have social phobia and gets really nervous and anxious ard pple.

I can certainly relate to what they were talking cos, not that i have Social Anxiety Disorder, but cos, i dun feel like being ard pple cos for some stupid reason, i thought that they are judging me... does the world revolve ard me? Err, i dun think so! But hey, everyone has their own insecurities but i think we gotta control it. A friend of mine mentioned a couple of times that i am able to mask my emotions very well and i dun lose control of myself. Initially, i thought it is good. But then again, on second thought, its not that good after all, i think i am pushing pple away cos i put up this wall and not let anyone in on how i really feel. I think that i am mastering the art of obliviousness very well that it haunts me back. Sometimes, i feel there is no need to open up to other pple cos i am already surrounded by the pple that matter most who knows the real me and not pass any judgement. Why shld i care what other pple think when i know that the pple that matter most, knows me! Why shld i care what other pple think when i dun owe them my living? But i shld have known better, Sociology have taught me that society do have an impact on how an individual thinks and acts...

I am so way off track on my New Yr's resolution, so here is what i hope to do......

1. Take pride in who i am --- sometimes i think i take too much pride that i feel my ego is way inflated.
2. Lose weight --- haha, this is an interesting one cos its brought forward fr so many yr backs.
3. Be friendly and smile --- this one is more pathetic! Always expect other pple to make the 1st move and too much ego to smile 1st.
4. Study Harder!!!! --- Gotta really study my darnest this yr!!! Gotta!! Gotta!!!!
5. Optimistic --- Gotta see the bright side of life! Even when you fall, u gotta laff at it and pick urself up!!!
6. Watch less TV --- must go thru cold turkey session and get rid of my addiction to tv!!
7. Make an effort to dress nicer --- gotta dress like a 22(soon) and stop being a slob!

So peeps, do u think i will be able to achieve all that???? Or will i have yet to bring it forward as my 2006 New Yr resolution? Hmmm..... let see in 1 yr time....

Saw this quiz thingy fr Azack's blog so decided to give it a try since i have nothing to do....


You are a cat woman. You are independant and very
self-rigious. You have a mind of your own and
are not afraid to show it. You tend to hide
your true feelings and get frustrated (easy).

Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only
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B:

Your Beauty liesin Plain Sight. Plain, simple and the girl nextdoor. People tend overlook you as you are the
"normal girl", but you're actuallyvery beautiful. And you have plenty about you to
set you apart, but more thatlets you blend. People love the stability you have
because as others may comeand go, you will always be there and you may always
be the same. You like simplethings and that's what people like about you. You
most likely enjoy things mostconsider normal, like movies, shopping, that sort
of thing and are very friendlyand probably have many friends. You are sweet and
kind and that shows on you,but you're also strong and not very naive. You're a
rather well-roundedindividual. Even though some people pass you off as
just another girl, shrug itoff because they don't know what they're
missing.

Some ThingsThat Represent You:

Element:Earth, Light Animal: Cat Color:
Pinks, Blues, Browns Song:Girl Next Door by Pilot Expression: Simple
Smile

Gemstone:Alexandrite Mythological Creature: Fox
Demon, Hobbit Planet: Jupiter Hair
Color: Light Brown Eye Color:Brown

Quote:"To the world you may be one person, but to
one person you may be the world."

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