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Monday, November 26, 2007

Here I Come Ilhan!!!!!!

In about 24hrs, I wld be busy getting ready to get myself to the airport. The day that I've been waiting for since uni is finally here, it is kinda surreal if you ask me. The trip that took us abt 3yrs in the making is coming true really, really soon.

The surrealism and mixed feelings are sthg which I am not expectig AT ALL!

It is surreal cos all we did were just talk, talk and more talk abt going to Ilhan Mansiz's homeland. But in abt 24hrs time, I wld be making my way there! There! To TURKEY!!!! The thought that I wld be stepping on Turkish soil is crazieee! I wld be breathing the same air as Ilhan and Emre.... I wld be eating kebabs in Turkey itself.... I wld be bargaining at the Grand Bazaar... I wld be straddling between 2 continents! All that happening in mere 24hrs!!!! AAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The first time when we wanted to book our tix, it didnt materalise cos mummy was making so much noise as I had just finished uni and I had no income of my own. I guess I'm glad it didnt happen, cos now, the trip feels a lil more special as it is from my own savings, blood, sweat and tears. Gotta thanx dad though for contributing some moolahs for the trip, but that moolah is going straight to my savings account. 2009 hopefully Europe and 2010 wld be Johannesburg! Hopefully! Keeping my fingers, toes and eyes crossed!!

Mixed feelings............. Hmmmmm....... This is the hard and surprising part. I am already missing my mum whenever I picture myself being in Turkey without her for 11 days... 11 days without mummy dearest!!! Those who know me well, you knew what happened in Ubin.... The longest I have been apart from my mum was 5 days and that was pretty bad.... I am so scared that instead of enjoying myself, I wld be homesick! I know that I'll miss my mummy but I hope not to miss her like crazy... I dun wanna see my mummy's face in every good-looking, eligible Turkish guy I see... That wld be fweaky!!!!

I am feeling a lil sad cos I'm leaving her for such a long period. I know she wld be worried and missing me a lot. There'll be no one at home for her to nag at or to irritate her. I dun care if my hp bill gonna cost a bomb, I'm so gonna call her everyday! I know that it is hard for her to let me leave her for 11 days... I bet it feels like 110 days to her... Sighhhh... MUMMY, I LOVE YOU!!!!!

I know I am supposed to enjoy myself after all these years of waiting, but I just can help feeling melancholic abt the whole trip. It cld be cos it is my first time being away from home for a long period of time. I know that I wld be missing some pple when I'm away.... I hope to be missed my many and not be forgotten by one.....

Posted at 11:16 PM
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Sunday, November 18, 2007

And I Bled It Out!!!!

It was a one night affair which I did not want to end. All these years of waiting finally came and it ended so fast!! The counting down to 13th Nov, the Q-ing up and the waiting for 2hrs standing up was all worth it for that one night. They came and they sure conquered!! Oh, I'm talking abt LINKIN PARK by the way... THEY ROCK!!!




I was so worried that S'pore crowd would be dead an unresponsive but I was proven so wrong! EVERYONE was singing/shouting every verse of the lyrics at the top of their lungs. EVERY single song was greeted with loud cheers like it was their favourite LP song. EVERYTHING was moving especially the barricades cos pple were just moshing so hard, so hard that it moved inwards and the security personnel were in panic mode trying to get it aligned and not toppled.

We were standing beside the barricade, fifth row from the front and we ended up like the tenth row by the end of the concert. Nearly 5 pple fainted and the moshing was crazieeeeee.... It was just our luck that the crowd on the right were aggressive. We had to stand our grounds with the pple pushing, shoving, squeezing in to get to the front. Chester was mere centimetres away from my hand when he came down to the crowd. He described the crowd as RUTHLESS! And I sure agree... The crowd was awesome!!!! But most of all, LINKIN PARK was GREAT!!!!!




My first highlight of the year was definitely worth the wait.... My second highlight of the year will come true next week, I hope it will worth the money....

Posted at 10:14 PM
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Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Emotional Wreck....

The long, long, long awaited update is finally here.... but I wld not be updating much cos all I can say is that it has been one heck of an emotional day..

Started the day really, really bad and ended it with a feeling of numbness... Sometimes I just wondered what more can I do... sigh..... I guess it can never be enuff....

Posted at 12:44 AM
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